CHANNELED WISDOM, DIRECTLY FROM MY HEART
My nose feels like it’s going to fall off. Because I’ve just been blowing it for the last hour, and wiping away hot and painful tears. This is business as usual since my break-up last month. And the pain has been coming in waves. I have good days and bad days, and today feels like … Continue reading CHANNELED WISDOM, DIRECTLY FROM MY HEART
LEAN INTO GRIEF AND DISCOVER THE MYSTERIES OF ITS WISDOM
My best friend sent me a link to an amazing podcast episode yesterday. And ever since I listened to it, I have been practicing deliberate heart-work, in order to help me process my grief. As discussed in the episode, I have been finding that when we lean into grief, rather than run from it, we uncover all of our illusions. And when we drop from our heads into our hearts, and honor the wisdom of our chest-center, we can move through grief, pain, loss, and sadness, in a much more productive way. It’s such hard work, but so much better than avoidance. Continue reading LEAN INTO GRIEF AND DISCOVER THE MYSTERIES OF ITS WISDOM
OOPS, I DID IT AGAIN, AND REPEATED MY LOVE MISTAKES
Argh, I feel so ashamed and embarrassed. Because I’m a 42 year-old-woman. And have only just realized that one of the reasons my love relationship just ended, is because of love mistakes I’ve been repeating since 2002! Granted, I’ve really only had two serious relationships in the last 20 years. So, if I was a bit more active with romantic risk-taking, I may have discovered this sooner. But, here I am. I’m right here, staring my uggo reality in the face. And it feels like muck. Although, it’s humbling beyond anything. Continue reading OOPS, I DID IT AGAIN, AND REPEATED MY LOVE MISTAKES
EXPERIENCING FREEDOM FROM FEAR AND NEGATIVITY IN NEW AND IMPROVED WAYS
Experiencing a break-up feels a bit like experiencing the death of a loved one. One goes through the same grieving process, and this process can’t be forced. It just sucks, and there’s no fucking way around it. But what also miraculously happens after a death, if we are open to it, are newfound open windows, doors, insights, and magic. We are often graced by these new opportunities, and don’t necessarily have to force them. We just have to hold on, white-knuckling, surviving the waves of sadness. And allow Grace to heal us, and gift us with new possibilities. And since my recent break-up, I am already experiencing freedom from fear and negativity in new and improved ways. Continue reading EXPERIENCING FREEDOM FROM FEAR AND NEGATIVITY IN NEW AND IMPROVED WAYS
STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW TO ACCEPT LIFE ON LIFE’S TERMS
One of the hardest parts about being dumped, is the fact that I had no say in the matter. And I’m really struggling right now to accept life on life’s terms. Because what this task requires is to basically sit and stew in the filth that is my current life. I can squirm and wriggle and try to free myself from this reality swamp. But the more I resist, the longer it’s going to take for me to get through this grieving process. This much I know. So, what I really need to do is just accept a few painful facts. Continue reading STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW TO ACCEPT LIFE ON LIFE’S TERMS
POWERFUL WOMEN NEED AND WANT LOVE TOO
Before I get into the topic of how and why powerful women need and want love too, let me start by saying that all women are powerful. All of them. Every last one of them. The passive housewife who has been “obedient” to her husband for her entire life is powerful. Women may not have been given proper opportunities to express their power, but it doesn’t mean they don’t have it. Continue reading POWERFUL WOMEN NEED AND WANT LOVE TOO
I WELCOME THE COMFORTING NIGHTS AND DREAD MY AWAKE TIME
ally struggling during my waking hours. The nights have been my time of ultimate healing, and recovery, and restoration. And I haven’t been actively doing anything to move it along. I’ve been unconscious for most of it, and it’s been happening to me, and for me. Thank you, Nighttime, you are the best! Continue reading I WELCOME THE COMFORTING NIGHTS AND DREAD MY AWAKE TIME
I LOST MY DREAM LIFE 12 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS
“I don’t want to marry you,” he said to me, shaking and emotional over dinner on Friday, December 3rd, 2021. He had been kinda weird and distant all week, but I didn’t know why. I calmly muttered back, “Do you even want to be with me?” Like, are we talking break-up, heartbreak, nightmare? Or just an unconventional life path, moving forward as beloved partners? I felt like I already knew the answer, but of course I needed clarity. He responded that he wasn’t sure. And over the next week and a half, day by day, conversation by conversation, reality set in, as I tried to fight it and push it back hard. And on Monday, December 13th, I officially lost my dream life. Continue reading I LOST MY DREAM LIFE 12 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS
THANK YOU 2021 AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!
This is my last post of 2021. Because I try to practice goddess-esque living in all of my affairs. And taking a break, remaining present for joy, and pulling away for further reflection, are all super goddessy things. And as much as I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE blogging, I am also looking forward to spending a few weeks away. It’s kind of like when you’re in an awesome relationship. But you have plans to go away on vacation with friends. And as much as you love your partner, you also can’t wait to be away so you can fall back in love, and experience that longing again. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, it’s true. So, I am lovingly creating space between me and my beloved GA, for just a short time. In order to return with fresh and fully-formed, open insight, and feelings of galactic excitement to begin again! Continue reading THANK YOU 2021 AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!