DECEMBER REPRESENTS BOTH LOVE AND LOSS FOR ME

I’ve been feeling emotionally heavy lately and I haven’t been able to put my finger on it. But every year around this time I start to feel this way. And whenever I feel this way, I have a compulsion to create some art to get some of my gunky feelings out. Last night, I made something to release this gunk. Then, as I was running errands this morning, I realized the three biggest losses of my life all happened in December. And the art I made last night was a direct reflection of these three losses. In this post, I’m going to decode this work of art and share a few things with you. As it’s become abundantly clear to me that December represents both love and loss for me. Continue reading DECEMBER REPRESENTS BOTH LOVE AND LOSS FOR ME

I HAVE A FINITE AMOUNT OF PURE FIRE ENERGY

This is my first post in about two weeks, and I haven’t forgotten about my blog at all. It’s just that I have a finite amount of pure fire energy to work with. This pure fire energy is basically my creative fire. That twinge of inspiration that has enough umph to make me put what’s in my head, and heart, and soul, out into the physical world. I think human beings perhaps have varying levels of pure fire energy they can tap into at any time. But I know my limits, and I know what I have to give. Lately, this energy has been needed in other areas of my life. So my blog and podcast have been a bit abandoned, and that’s okay. Continue reading I HAVE A FINITE AMOUNT OF PURE FIRE ENERGY

SEX, ART, AND RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE SAME IN THESE WAYS

In this podcast episode I discuss seven things that happen when we engage in sex, art-making, and entering into a relationship with another. All of these things require an element of surrender, as well as deliberate action, and so much more. And when these three processes are complete, we are never quite the same. It’s actually quite a beautiful way to make peace with loss, completions, and endings. And it’s an even better way to remain hopeful about continuing forward with these three beautiful acts of love.  Continue reading SEX, ART, AND RELATIONSHIPS ARE THE SAME IN THESE WAYS

3 WAYS I’VE TRIUMPHED AS A SINGLE WOMAN

This title doesn’t exactly capture the sentiment of this article, so let me clarify. I’m going to share specifically about three things I used to feel sorry for myself about as a single woman, but no longer attach a sad story to. Now, they’re just things that have nothing to do with me being single. Trust me, you’ll understand more once I get going. Continue reading 3 WAYS I’VE TRIUMPHED AS A SINGLE WOMAN

IF I’M BEING HONEST, I’M SCARED TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN

I’ve been pulling daily tarot cards lately so I can be mindful of where my soul is at. And yesterday I pulled a card that perplexed me. The card was John Holland’s “Trapped in Fear” card, otherwise known as the 8 of swords in traditional tarot. And my first reaction was, “I’m not scared!” And then I had a dream last night that validated this card. Cementing for me, in the wee hours of this morning, the fact that, oh damn, I’m scared to fall in love again. Not just scared, but petrified. Continue reading IF I’M BEING HONEST, I’M SCARED TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN

WHAT DO YOU REACH FOR WHEN YOU’RE FEELING EMPTY?

I treat this podcast episode as a space of semi-guilty confession, and admit to the things I reach for when I’m feeling empty and depleted. I think we all feel empty at times, and sometimes it’s easier to reach for something soothing than it is to just sit with the uncomfortable feelings. But right now I’m trying to do better. This episode is an invitation to join me in the human admittance of this very normal behavior, and to also perhaps try to just sit a bit longer in the discomfort, in order to stretch those spiritual muscles. It’s a practice, and we’re not seeking perfection here!  Continue reading WHAT DO YOU REACH FOR WHEN YOU’RE FEELING EMPTY?

I KNOW IT’S BEEN A MINUTE SINCE I BLOGGED

I just wanted to do an update post for all of my lovely and devoted followers. In case you were wondering where I’ve been and why I haven’t been posting on my usual twice-a-week schedule. And if you didn’t even notice I was gone, that’s okay too! Either way, I know it’s been a minute since I blogged, and I wanted to offer an explanation as to why, if I can even explain it myself. At the very least, I will share with you what I’ve been up to over the last few weeks! Continue reading I KNOW IT’S BEEN A MINUTE SINCE I BLOGGED

WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU COCOONED, FOR REAL?

In this episode I share about my most recent dating disappointment, and how it compelled me to enter into cocooning mode after several days of resisting facing my feelings. Seriously, when is the last time you cocooned? Sad emotions, and even seemingly minor disappointments, setbacks, conflicts, and other life issues take a lot out of us. And many of us go months, if not years, without stopping to cocoon and just feel our feelings, and tend to ourselves. How many of you are resisting it too? Continue reading WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU COCOONED, FOR REAL?

DATING DISAPPOINTMENTS ARE FORCING ME TO BECOME MORE ZEN

Over the weekend, I had a dating potential go south, and I’m super bummed. This time, it wasn’t too terrible. He was so nice, and was so honest and up front about himself. And he essentially realized he wasn’t as ready to date as he thought he was, and decided to take a break to work on himself. I mean, I get it, I really do. But damn, I REALLY liked him. Granted, we only had two dates. But wow, dating him made me realize I need to raise my bar a bit. Because he’s the first guy I’ve dated in a really long time who I actually liked. And who I was insanely attracted to. And dating is so much more fun when you’re into it. However, dating disappointments hurt that much more when you really like the person. But, I suppose it’s a risk I’m willing to take on my quest for love. Continue reading DATING DISAPPOINTMENTS ARE FORCING ME TO BECOME MORE ZEN