I’VE NEVER NOT RUSHED INTO FINDING A MAN…UNTIL NOW

In this podcast episode, I share with you my history of obsessively searching for love, beginning at the age of 5 years old. And how my recent breakup has shaped a new way of approaching love. For this time around, I would like to take my time, set deliberate intentions, and make sure my motivations for finding a man to share my life with, are coming from a goddess-level place, and not from a place of needy desperation. I share with you some ideas I have for preparing to get out there into the dating world, and expand upon my new and next-level mindset for finding love.  Continue reading I’VE NEVER NOT RUSHED INTO FINDING A MAN…UNTIL NOW

USING AFFIRMATIONS IN A WAY I NEVER HAVE BEFORE

I was driving home from my sister’s house last night, and I was feeling pretty good. Considering it’s been two months since being broken up with, I think I was in very good spirits. Then a song came on that made my cry. No big deal, songs make me cry all of the time these days, and that’s okay. But I realized that right after I gathered myself, my cheeks still wet with tears, I started obsessing about romance. And I noticed that it’s this thing that I do, that I have historically done, when I’m in pain. So, on this occasion, instead of letting the obsessions play out, I started using affirmations, saying them out loud to myself in that moment. And these affirmations really seemed to neutralize my emotions, and level me out. Continue reading USING AFFIRMATIONS IN A WAY I NEVER HAVE BEFORE

WHY I HATE BEING A WOMAN

This is the first of of my “Real and Raw” guest post series. And it’s coming from one of my favorite bloggers, K E Garland. I’ve been getting to know Kathy over the last few months, via our mutual blogs. And she’s just one of those bloggers that I can relate to. Where something she says makes me go, “Yep, yep.” And where her responses to my words make me feel validated and connected. I was secretly hoping she would submit something for this series, but of course, I didn’t want to push. Thankfully, I didn’t have to! And I think we can tell by this topic of “Why I Hate Being A Woman,” we are in for a real and raw treat! Continue reading WHY I HATE BEING A WOMAN

ATTEMPTING TO UNCOVER HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT MYSELF

In this podcast episode, I share honestly about my false confidence and buried feelings of self-hate, and expand upon my recent experience with inner child work. I also get really honest about my true feelings about my ex, and how his anger towards me triggers my feelings of self-hate and low self-worth. And most importantly, I share with you the tools and resources that I have been using to sort through this muck, and how I have been finding new and improved ways to treat myself with more love, and more understanding. Something I think we can all use a bit more of, don’t you!? Continue reading ATTEMPTING TO UNCOVER HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT MYSELF

SHIT HAPPENS SOMETIMES, AND IT’S KINDA NOT PERSONAL

I really struggled to find a featured photo for this post. Because I get so triggered looking at images of terrible things like natural disasters and people suffering. However, the more healing work I do, coming out of my recent breakup, the more I’m coming to terms with the fact that shit happens. And it’s really not personal. Meaning, the universe is not particular, and in general, tends to hand a bit of shit off to all of us. Every single one of us. It’s part of being on this Earth, and there is really no avoiding it. I hate this. And I wish this were not true. But it is. And I think the sooner I can wrap my brain around this, the sooner I can release myself completely, from my state of victimhood. Continue reading SHIT HAPPENS SOMETIMES, AND IT’S KINDA NOT PERSONAL

A VALENTINE’S DAY LETTER TO MY EX

This post was originally published by the lovely Wonani, on her beautiful blog, Dose of Wonani. And in the spirit of Valentine’s Day, she put out a call to those wanting to write a love letter to someone. As most of you know, “I Lost My Dream Life 12 Days Before Christmas,” and am still in the throes of grieving. It was a no-brainer then, for me to write out a Valentine’s Day letter to my ex. Gulp. I have to admit, I really have NO problems sharing much of anything about myself. But, this one makes me feel a bit more exposed than normal. Which is also why I love doing it! Continue reading A VALENTINE’S DAY LETTER TO MY EX

GRAPPLING WITH THE OKAYNESS OF NOT BEING IN CONTROL

In this podcast episode, I share a bit about how my control issues originated in childhood, and how those control issues have shaped the way I view my current love life, my single status, and my approach to finding new love. I was inspired by something Lindsay Mack shared in her beautiful podcast, Tarot For The Wild Soul. And she essentially said that we have no control over finding our love partner. This blew my mind, and still does! Because for so many years, I really thought I could control everything, including my path to love. Finally, I share about new ideas and ways in which I’m attempting to reframe this controlling way of thinking, in order to open me up to greater love and happiness! Continue reading GRAPPLING WITH THE OKAYNESS OF NOT BEING IN CONTROL

BEAUTIFUL THINGS MAKE ME HAPPY

I used to wonder about the purpose of beauty in the world. I know this sounds strange coming from an artist like myself. But, it’s true. And I would wonder (please pardon my momentary vanity) why I was allowed to be pretty in this world, when others were not granted the “pretty gene.” What purpose was this serving? More on that in a moment. And as an artist, although I definitely appreciate all the beauty that is found in art, I never thought it had the capacity to do much soul-saving in the world. Compared to something like music. However, lately, my feelings are changing. And I’m noticing, in both big and small ways, how much beautiful things make me happy. Continue reading BEAUTIFUL THINGS MAKE ME HAPPY

MAKING BEAUTIFUL ART ABOUT GRIEF AND LOSS IS REALLY HELPING

Loss is loss, and it doesn’t exactly matter what form it takes. And even though I’m surviving the loss of my romantic relationship, one month after he broke up with me, I’m still grieving hard core. And for whatever reason, I have been finding that making beautiful art about the death of my mother is really helping. Perhaps the sadness I’m feeling about losing my ex is bringing up unchecked emotions about the loss of my mother. Or, perhaps I just need a new way to grieve the loss of Mike, and making sad art about my mother is helping move those emotions along. Continue reading MAKING BEAUTIFUL ART ABOUT GRIEF AND LOSS IS REALLY HELPING

PUTTING MY LIFE IN THE HANDS OF THE GODDESSES, I THINK…

In this episode of The Goddess Attainable Podcast, I share a bit about how I’m trying to find a new way to manage my fears and stresses about money and other life things, in the wake of my recent and abrupt breakup. And I give details about a sort of miracle experience with a mop, that I had while I was communicating with The Goddesses. This episode is about making a choice to turn things over (to a power greater than ourselves, in whatever form that takes), when life is just too scary and overwhelming. Continue reading PUTTING MY LIFE IN THE HANDS OF THE GODDESSES, I THINK…