I’M BACK ON THE DATING APPS AND I’M OPTIMISTIC!

Okay, so I haven’t actually gone out on a date yet. At least not at the time of me writing this post. But, today was the first day I dove into the pool of smart phone romance. And there are a few things that feel different this time around. I will get into these details with you below. But, I just wanted to note what a big deal this is. For those of you who don’t know, I’m fresh out of a breakup. Sixty-six days to be exact. And we were together for three and a half years, in addition to cohabitating. So, it’s been a minute since I’ve been on the dating apps. And a LOT has happened since then. Continue reading I’M BACK ON THE DATING APPS AND I’M OPTIMISTIC!

I’VE NEVER NOT RUSHED INTO FINDING A MAN…UNTIL NOW

In this podcast episode, I share with you my history of obsessively searching for love, beginning at the age of 5 years old. And how my recent breakup has shaped a new way of approaching love. For this time around, I would like to take my time, set deliberate intentions, and make sure my motivations for finding a man to share my life with, are coming from a goddess-level place, and not from a place of needy desperation. I share with you some ideas I have for preparing to get out there into the dating world, and expand upon my new and next-level mindset for finding love.  Continue reading I’VE NEVER NOT RUSHED INTO FINDING A MAN…UNTIL NOW

USING AFFIRMATIONS IN A WAY I NEVER HAVE BEFORE

I was driving home from my sister’s house last night, and I was feeling pretty good. Considering it’s been two months since being broken up with, I think I was in very good spirits. Then a song came on that made my cry. No big deal, songs make me cry all of the time these days, and that’s okay. But I realized that right after I gathered myself, my cheeks still wet with tears, I started obsessing about romance. And I noticed that it’s this thing that I do, that I have historically done, when I’m in pain. So, on this occasion, instead of letting the obsessions play out, I started using affirmations, saying them out loud to myself in that moment. And these affirmations really seemed to neutralize my emotions, and level me out. Continue reading USING AFFIRMATIONS IN A WAY I NEVER HAVE BEFORE

ATTEMPTING TO UNCOVER HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT MYSELF

In this podcast episode, I share honestly about my false confidence and buried feelings of self-hate, and expand upon my recent experience with inner child work. I also get really honest about my true feelings about my ex, and how his anger towards me triggers my feelings of self-hate and low self-worth. And most importantly, I share with you the tools and resources that I have been using to sort through this muck, and how I have been finding new and improved ways to treat myself with more love, and more understanding. Something I think we can all use a bit more of, don’t you!? Continue reading ATTEMPTING TO UNCOVER HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT MYSELF

SHIT HAPPENS SOMETIMES, AND IT’S KINDA NOT PERSONAL

I really struggled to find a featured photo for this post. Because I get so triggered looking at images of terrible things like natural disasters and people suffering. However, the more healing work I do, coming out of my recent breakup, the more I’m coming to terms with the fact that shit happens. And it’s really not personal. Meaning, the universe is not particular, and in general, tends to hand a bit of shit off to all of us. Every single one of us. It’s part of being on this Earth, and there is really no avoiding it. I hate this. And I wish this were not true. But it is. And I think the sooner I can wrap my brain around this, the sooner I can release myself completely, from my state of victimhood. Continue reading SHIT HAPPENS SOMETIMES, AND IT’S KINDA NOT PERSONAL

A VALENTINE’S DAY LETTER TO MY EX

This post was originally published by the lovely Wonani, on her beautiful blog, Dose of Wonani. And in the spirit of Valentine’s Day, she put out a call to those wanting to write a love letter to someone. As most of you know, “I Lost My Dream Life 12 Days Before Christmas,” and am still in the throes of grieving. It was a no-brainer then, for me to write out a Valentine’s Day letter to my ex. Gulp. I have to admit, I really have NO problems sharing much of anything about myself. But, this one makes me feel a bit more exposed than normal. Which is also why I love doing it! Continue reading A VALENTINE’S DAY LETTER TO MY EX

GRAPPLING WITH THE OKAYNESS OF NOT BEING IN CONTROL

In this podcast episode, I share a bit about how my control issues originated in childhood, and how those control issues have shaped the way I view my current love life, my single status, and my approach to finding new love. I was inspired by something Lindsay Mack shared in her beautiful podcast, Tarot For The Wild Soul. And she essentially said that we have no control over finding our love partner. This blew my mind, and still does! Because for so many years, I really thought I could control everything, including my path to love. Finally, I share about new ideas and ways in which I’m attempting to reframe this controlling way of thinking, in order to open me up to greater love and happiness! Continue reading GRAPPLING WITH THE OKAYNESS OF NOT BEING IN CONTROL

MAKING BEAUTIFUL ART ABOUT GRIEF AND LOSS IS REALLY HELPING

Loss is loss, and it doesn’t exactly matter what form it takes. And even though I’m surviving the loss of my romantic relationship, one month after he broke up with me, I’m still grieving hard core. And for whatever reason, I have been finding that making beautiful art about the death of my mother is really helping. Perhaps the sadness I’m feeling about losing my ex is bringing up unchecked emotions about the loss of my mother. Or, perhaps I just need a new way to grieve the loss of Mike, and making sad art about my mother is helping move those emotions along. Continue reading MAKING BEAUTIFUL ART ABOUT GRIEF AND LOSS IS REALLY HELPING

A PHILOSOPHER’S REFRESHING VIEW ON THE NATURE OF LOVE

My father just experienced a recent and devastating loss. His closest friend of 32 years just passed away from Covid-19 complications. They had to say good-bye over the phone. And just as my father has been processing his own grief, I have also been processing mine. As many of you know, “I Lost My Dream Life 12 Days Before Christmas,” and have been writing article after article, keeping you all in the loop of my emotional healing journey. And since both he and I are grieving in our own ways, he sent me this fascinating article about the nature of love and loss, from the perspective of the great Stoic philosopher, Epictetus. Continue reading A PHILOSOPHER’S REFRESHING VIEW ON THE NATURE OF LOVE

GENTLY EMERGING FROM MY STATE OF VICTIMHOOD

If you’ve been following my blog, especially over the last month, you will know that I was dumped just before Christmas. And I have been sharing about my pain, via this blog, ever since. I have been releasing article after article about my heartbreak and grieving, exposing my process. And you have been such supportive goddesses through all of it. But now, I sense a change coming. Maybe this change is arriving because my eyes are about to fall out from so much crying, and I want to keep them in tact. Or maybe, it’s just time. Regardless, I feel myself gently emerging from my state of victimhood. And have begun to experience the slightest glimmer of hope peeking through. Thank the fucking Goddesses! Continue reading GENTLY EMERGING FROM MY STATE OF VICTIMHOOD