I just wanted to do an update post for all of my lovely and devoted followers. In case you were wondering where I’ve been and why I haven’t been posting on my usual twice-a-week schedule. And if you didn’t even notice I was gone, that’s okay too! Either way, I know it’s been a minute since I blogged, and I wanted to offer an explanation as to why, if I can even explain it myself. At the very least, I will share with you what I’ve been up to over the last few weeks!
MY STRUGGLES AS A SINGLE GODDESS ARE CONTRIBUTING TO MY DWINDLING BLOG POSTS
I’ll tell you right now that I have historically always functioned better when I’m in a romantic relationship. I wish this wasn’t the case, and I know it sounds so un-goddess-like. But I know myself and it’s just the way I am. When I’m partnered with someone, I’m more at peace and can focus more easily on things OTHER than looking for love. But when I’m not partnered, I’m fairly consumed with looking for a partner. And every waking moment that I am living as a single person feels extra weighted by this burdensome search.
I mean, don’t get me wrong. I’m a highly functioning woman and actually take care of myself rather expertly as an independent goddess. But my soul cries when I’m single, and that does affect my blog, which is directly connected to my soul.
When I was with my ex, I blogged like crazy. I had so much to say and so much to share, and I was so at peace in my life. The words just flowed and all of my channels were open. Because my heart was open in love. However, when I’m not in love, my heart remains a bit protective and strained. A goddess needs to keep her guard up just a bit in the dating world, and keep her wits about her when looking for love. It takes time to find someone kind and trustworthy to open to in love. And this closure tends to suck the inspiration from my soul and the energy from my body.
To get caught up on my love life, you can check out the Love and Dating section of my blog.
HERE’S WHAT I HAVEN’T BEEN DOING LATELY
1. I haven’t been blogging.
Duh, I literally just talked about how I haven’t blogged in a hot minute. But my anal-retentive Virgo nature can’t leave this off the list, even if it’s obvious and redundant.
Actually, now that I think about it, this is really the only thing that’s dropped since I Lost My Dream Life 12 Days Before Christmas.
HERE’S WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING LATELY
Even though it’s been a bit since I blogged, I do feel like there are other things that have been taking my blog’s place. It’s not like I’ve been hiding under a hole. I think instead that my energy has just shifted a bit. And I need to honor these inclinations and trust that my soul is just working things out.
1. I dropped a few podcast episodes
I podcast really sporadically and only record an episode when I feel inspired. That way I know it will be quality. If you’re curious, you can listen to The Goddess Attainable Podcast on any number of preferred podcast apps (I’m on them all!).
2. I joined TikTok and have been posting like a maniac
I resisted TikTok for so long, and I still don’t care for viewing videos on TikTok. But I was finding that my Instagram reels were very TikTok-esque, and so I finally took the plunge. And now I post on TikTok like a maniac. It’s actually a super fun and creative outlet!
3. I’ve been meditating regularly
I’ve done so many blog posts about my journey with meditation, and I often stop and start like a huge poser phony. However, I’ve actually become so much more devoted to it over the last few months. And do you know why? Because the results are very apparent in my everyday life.
For one thing, I think meditation helped me manage my anxiety during the eye surgery I was required to endure. And my body was just overall more calm in the face of absolute terror.
“MRI scans show that after an eight-week course of mindfulness practice, the brain’s “fight or flight” center, the amygdala, appears to shrink. This primal region of the brain, associated with fear and emotion, is involved in the initiation of the body’s response to stress.”–Scientific American
I have also found that when I meditate, my mind is more under control. I hate using that word “control.” But it’s so true. And I should say, when I’m NOT meditating, I notice how out of control my thoughts can get. I even kind of got a bit short with my new boss last week. She was cool about it, but I wasn’t cool with it. I apologized and noticed that I hadn’t been meditating for those last two weeks. So, in the name of professional integrity, I re-devoted myself to meditation in an even more committed way than before. I also just spiral mentally so much less, if at all, when I’m meditating daily.
4. I’ve been super busy at my day job
Speaking of professional integrity, I have been so busy at work lately. And that alone I think warrants a pause from blogging. My work life is usually very low stres, easy breezy, and still very fulfilling. It’s a dream, honestly. But it’s just been more busy than normal, and that has been sucking the energy out of me as well.
5. I’ve been dating
I don’t even want to talk about dating in this post, because I blogged about it in so many recent posts. But I’ll just say that dating does take a lot of emotional energy. And since I haven’t had much luck with dating, I don’t feel all that positive about my love life. And that honestly just makes me feel depressed. And when I’m depressed, it’s harder to muster up the inspiration to blog.
6. I’ve been diving into my tarot practice
Cocooning is so conducive to studying tarot, so I’ve been diving into my ongoing class (it’s a year-long, self-paced, online class). I talk more about my tarot studies in my blog post, “Do You Want To Help Me Practice Reading Tarot Cards?” And even though it’s been a few weeks since I blogged, I have not dropped my tarot ball.
7. I’ve been vegging out on TV and YouTube
I think I’m still in a grieving process from the loss of my relationship (coming up on 9 months now). And because of this, cocooning, vegging, and just indulging are really things I recommend to get through difficult times. It takes energy to walk around all day with a grieving heart. And at the end of the day, just do something that fucking feels good. I want to eat chips and watch Marvel movies, and I do! And I want to watch beautiful women (Alexa Chan, Allana Davison, and Cate the Great Beauty) put on beautiful makeup. It’s one of my favorite things to do and I have a few beauty influencers whom I follow regularly.
These ladies just make me love being a woman, inspire me to play with makeup, and transport me to prettier worlds, even for just 20 minutes at a time.
I FEEL BETTER ALREADY
Ok, I’m not making any guarantees, and I’m actually pretty sure that my blogging posts will continue to dwindle for a bit. However, as I was writing this post, I was thinking, “Yep, I still love this. I fucking love my blog, and I fucking LOVE blogging.” So folks, I’m 100% not going anywhere for the time being. I’m just going through some shit now. And I’m doing what goddesses do. I’m taking care of myself. And tending to the things that need tending to. I know my blog will still be here when I’m ready to get back into regular posting, and it will wait for me until I’m feeling better. I hope you all will too! xo
You have no idea how much I love all my followers. And even the random Googler who stumbles upon one of my posts has a special place in my heart. I love you too! And even though it’s been a bit since I blogged, I thank you for hanging in there with me.
Tell me, have you ever paused on blogging, or some other passion project, when things in life were just upside down? Have you noticed that it’s been a while since I blogged? What do you do to take care of yourself during hard times? And how have you found ways to endure during dark days?
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