1. I totally relate with you. I’m absolutely terrified to fall in love – losing someone I love to life or death would kill me. I barely got through my last heart break without totally going insane. But I guess that’s the risk you run when you’re human and have a heart. We both have a lot of love to give to that someone special and I hope we find our special men soon. ❤️

  2. Oh, this is beautifully written and I so relate. It’s been 10 years since I got divorced and even though I can tell the story frontward and backward and pretty much feel just gratitude that I’m no longer with him, there’s still something there.

    One of my favorite quotes is from Mark Nepo and it’s “Suffering makes an instrument of each of us, so that standing naked, holes and all, the unseen vitalities can be heard through our simplified lives.” I think, and have yet to test this but the wounds from our previous relationships might be able to make beautiful music. It certainly makes us better able to relate to each other. Maybe, we just keep expressing our tender spots and fears and then one day find we’ve flourished even with them.

    That’s my hope at least. Whatever happens, please know I’m cheering you along on this journey!!

    1. Thank you Wynne! I’m cheering you on as well 💖 And yes I’m forever haunted by the question of why we must suffer. Sometimes it feels like there’s a deeper reason, and sometimes it feels needless. But I’m spiritual enough to actually believe that none of it is needless. And at the very least, I just surrender the answer to the goddesses and the universe. And decide that maybe it’s ok that I don’t know. And that in the end, maybe our suffering just unites as as humans in friendship. What a lovely thought no? 💖💖

  3. Yes! I have definitely been scared to fall in love again and had to work through my fear by getting therapy and talking with friends and continuously move through that fear… I always had a wall up… All the while I was sifting through guys on apps, I was desperate to find someone I could be myself with but it would take me forever to open up and be myself with any of them so then I just started sabotaging each of those potential relationships- everything became a red flag and some of those were indeed red flags and others may have just been my own doing… it’s hard to say what’s a good way to deal with the fear or move through it but all I could do was do what you’re doing, keeping that end-goal in mind. If you know you want to end up with someone, no matter how hard it is or how long it takes, then in the end you will end up with someone.. I truly believe that!

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